Let’s begin the new year:
Facing the future.
A provocative term, full frontal. About bearing all your bits in public without cover.
I am not suggesting that this is your year to embrace going out in only your God-given covering.
I am suggesting that you begin right now to be clear that you are not turned around with your back to the future.
I am also suggesting that you give serious consideration to your control issues and your ability to face life with open vulnerability.
Why? Because very simply.
This is only way to be your best self here, now.
How do I know?
Because I spent a lot of 2017 pulled in, back to the future, trying to exert control, to guarantee outcomes.
It’s what we humans do when confronted with disappointment and traumatic events. When life comes at us, making us feel small and unsafe.
This has been a helluva year for me. I have a whole litany of trouble which doesn’t even include the challenges from the US government. Event after event, I have felt pushed back, batted down, stomped on. Events beyond my control, beyond my expectations, desires and dreams. Events which have intimidated, frightened and bewildered me in such ways that more than once I have just collapsed under the gaze of I-dont-know-what, unable to stand and face the music.
Until one day, the Guides in my Akashic Records called me out, reminding me of all I have learned, all the ways I have grown, and all that I am truly thankful for.
Life is magical. Life is wonderfully supportive of me in little ways and in big, huge ways.
No matter what happens, my big picture always fuels the trajectory of my life:
In this moment I am fully my best self, all of me shows up.
No matter the tribulations or the challenges, here, now is the precious gift of my best self.
Control seeks certainty in outcomes. Control is the mistaken belief that you can predict the infinite and eternal future.
But operating within the limited view of the linear and the static, control is illusory and disconnected from the dynamic motion of All That Is.
In calling me out, the Records were simply reminding me of my strength and ability to resist the temptations of control and, instead, follow the vulnerability of my heart and soul.
Vulnerability: the ability to lean into uncertainty. While control comes from fear, vulnerability comes from the excitement of facing the unknown in joy and heartfelt anticipation.
Control turns you around, looking back in a vain attempt to ensure future events.
Vulnerability allows forward motion, opening you to facing the future, heart available, best self forward.
Full frontal is vulnerability.
Full frontal is you without shield or defense.
Full frontal supports your capacity to step into the unknown of your life with excitement.
Invitation accepted! Full frontal it is!
Even though I know I still have a few bits hanging on here and there, even though I’m not as clear as I know I can be.
But full frontal is not about perfection or certainty.
In my journey forward, I want to give myself all the support I can muster to be my best self in each moment of my life.
This is the promise I claim for me in 2018.
This is the agreement I make with myself in each moment of my life.
Facing the future, full frontal, the best me, here, now.