I’ve been hiking a lot lately which has me wading through hike descriptions, learning a new lingo. The exploratory hike is an adventure that is new to the hike leader. Either never hiked the chosen path or deciding to attempt it in a new way, the leader is signaling an unfamiliarity with the path.
Exploratory. I like this idea. Life is exploration, investigation. Declaring exploratory signals the experimental, perhaps tentative nature of the mission.
For me human nature is exploratory. I am here in this life learning, gathering, experimenting, a couple of steps forward, one side step, one back, reverse and on I go. Exploring the nature of my humanness, learning about me in part through other’s experience of me, learning about us all by standing witness to the wholeness of life and human nature.
In my journey there is no one but me to experience my life. I am responsible for me. I make my choices. I choose my path.
My choice is the full view, the wide angle. I want to witness the fullness of each person who crosses my path. And I am learning to see emotional triggers as a push to look further into the human nature of me and whoever may be involved with me, around me, for me. Nothing is straight forward within human nature. We each have our own experiences. We each have within any experience our own choice. In this moment, now I am the captain of my soul, my journey, my path. And it is all exploratory. I have never before been to this point in my life. I will not be back exactly as I am now. I may walk in the company of others. Yet we all have our own choices, our own experiences. We each take the next step through our own motion.
For me friends are the people in my life who willingly share through their hearts their experience and hold a mirror for me to see mine.
And sometimes, someone crosses my path and the connection between us runs deep. And the interaction flows between hearts. Yes, my heart is in the picture. And I’m excited and joyous. There is a lightness in my step and in my heart because the light of this person resonates with the exploratory nature of me. I want to reach out across the divide and hold hands, physically touching that which has touch my heart, my spirit, my soul.
The human heart is capable of holding and experiencing multiple flows: friend, parent, child, partner, lover. When I meet someone, I stand in the possibility of all of these flows with my heart and I ask: How do I want to proceed with this person? The challenge is to allow the answer to come from within the full perspective of the person than to be limited by my own imposed boundaries or limiting decisions foisted by my own assumptions of what can be. I can know what I want. I can?t know what the other person wants until communicated to me. Of course, I don’t want to be disappointed if the other person makes a decision which steers them away from my path. Yet I am responsible for me and all I can do in any moment is stand open to my heart?s exploration, joyful in the connection, thankful for whatever has come whether there is departure or more exploration.
I am on my journey. Heart open, willing to learn. I make my choices; I think, I feel, I live. My life in its human nature of wholeness is exploratory.