My First Awareness of Sacred Relationship is one of many articles I have written about sacred relationship. Here I explore the beginnings of this awareness — an unexpected outcome of divorce!
Several years ago, after pulling myself out of the insanity of divorce, I re-claimed my sanity by intentionally choosing a path forward.
My first choice had to do with transforming my physical being.
This choice was successful and had the unintended consequences of all choice.
You may read about the transformational journey of my physical body in Failure and the Sexy Red Dress.
Following on that motion was a choice to move beyond my single status into the world of online dating.
Before I was married, I lived in a dark age without the likes of Match.com or OKCupid simply because the World Wide Web didn’t yet exist.
I had to spend some time learning the culture and the lingo in order to navigate this new-for-me dating arena.
After twelve months or so of some amazing experiences, I wrote about my journey because through the unintended consequences of online dating I learned some interesting things about myself which I am still exploring and pondering.
My number one awareness:
Who I am spiritually is integrated with who I am sexually.
Maybe it’s because I’ve spent much of my last thirty years, exploring and creating and understanding who I am in the midst of my spiritual journey.
However, this journey is my life, and thus, it stands to reason that any experience I have will be part of my spiritual being.
It’s just that my inner direction of “start dating” didn’t, at first, sound spiritual.
But then, my journey to my sexy red dress didn’t at first seem spiritual either.
Yet the experience of dating brought to me a deeper awareness of my spiritual side while I processed my experience through the entire lens of my life which includes the spiritual as well as the physical, emotional, and mental.
The following piece is something I wrote back then and describes the beginning of my awareness of sacred relationship. In simple terms, sacred relationship engages all levels of being, body, mind, heart, and soul.
When sacred relationship is held within the romantic, sex and all forms of touch as connection are part of the expression on all levels.
Though, for me, touch is not limited to the romantic relationship.
Experienced in this way, sacred relationship brings me into the awareness of my connection and my expression of the divine.
Me as divine.
I grew up with the image that if I kissed enough frogs, I would find my Prince Charming.
Instead, what I have found in this last year is if I kiss frogs, I find myself. I find me as Goddess emerging.
The fun of dating transformed me into a seeker of sacred relationship requiring I begin with myself, that I experience this journey within myself first and foremost.
When the journey goes inward, I feel the need, the desire, the dream to understand myself, to let go of that which no longer serves, and to be present to myself entirely and completely.
My journey is not the destination. My journey is the experience in this moment of me, for me.
This allows the best of me to move forward, to lead, to engage, to connect.
In allowing this inward dynamic to lead and guide, I am I, AND I am connected to, part of, the greater whole.
I am not alone or separated or set aside. As Goddess I am alive, inspired, connected to All That Is.
My Goddess is this connection with the divine. My Goddess is my willingness to live my life as sacred, as safe harbor.
As Goddess I am the active creator of my beautiful, wonderful life.
And as Goddess sacred relationship becomes my desire to share connection with other across the entire continuum of self, physical, emotional, intellectual and spiritual.
In a search for dates, I am focused outward on Prince Charming.
In a search for sacred relationship, surprisingly first I find myself and then and only then can I trust my Beloved and I will find each other.
I shine my bat signal to the skies and heavens above trusting he will find me.
I focus on me, on my learning, my experience, my happiness in trust that my wonderful, glorious life will always be the journey of trust and truth and love for me.
Whether he is frog or Prince, we will meet.
I am ready.
I am Goddess emerging.
This article is an excerpt from my book Sacred Hot Beginnings written under my pen name Marlayna Fire.