These are sixteen of Cheryl’s favorite bigger quotes from
Kissing Frogs, Goddess Emerging:
In this moment, I choose me. In this moment, I will stand with me and allow me to move forward. Whatever brought me to this point is nowhere as important as what I choose in this moment to take me forward into the next moments of my life.
No matter what the challenge. No matter the confusion or the contradiction, I have me. I am I. I get the choice of me. For me. About me. Knowing sometimes — maybe always — life is not so much about clarity, but about my ability to simply trust I am I.
I confess I have struggled with my weight for a very long time, at least 20 years. By declaring the desire for the sexy red dress and by declaring my intention to have the body for the sexy red dress, I was picking something both very significant for me and something that had always been elusive and seemingly unobtainable.
The sexy red dress was exactly what I wanted. This sexy red dress was my dream, the light at the end of a very long tunnel.? Decision made, I committed to myself and to my sexy red dress.? Come what may, I knew I had to find a way to create my path towards this sexy red dress.
Can I do one more? This question brings me face to face with both my success and my failure, my weakness and my strength. Either way does not make a difference. In this moment now, all that matters is that I give myself the chance to find out. The previous moment and the next do not matter. Whether I have already done one or a hundred does not matter. All that matters is honestly looking in my heart and feeling into the strength of my body and giving myself the chance of one more. Either way I go is success. When I work to failure, failure paradoxically becomes opportunity to find the best of myself. Definitions shift and ignoring or disregarding this opportunity to fail becomes failure.
It’s been twenty-six years since my last date….I feel like a fish out of water, the person who didn’t get the memo, and the girl who can’t find the instruction book. I don’t know how to decipher any of it. And, OMG!, I’ve already gotten email from 2Good2BTru and a wink from Howyadoinbabe.
Why Online Dating? My whys? Well, mmmm….? I work from home, mostly on the phone, and have very little chance to meet guys in a natural or organic process. Of course, it is not appropriate to date a client. Also standing around the produce aisle at the grocery store got me nothing. No wing-girls to hang out with in bars trolling for potentials. All the guys at my gym are married or too young. Don’t have the moolah for a matchmaker and would like to try something on my own first. Online dating sites have replaced classified personal ads and Aunties making introductions to their best friend’s sister’s youngest boy. Thus my basic why boils down really quickly to this: my only option.
Online dating is time consuming and can be a bit addictive…. Doesn’t take much to be up into the early morning hours obsessing over profiles and messages and the associated men. Kind of like dealing with sugar cravings. Sometimes I successfully avoided temptation. While at other times, regardless of my intended strategy, I must admit temptation got the better of me!
I also confidently acknowledge nothing need be compromised or sacrificed for love. In the relationship I want, love and I can work out our relationship so we both experience each other within the fullness of who we are.
We are both student and teacher to each other, yearning to grow and learn about ourselves and each other, discussing and exploring both our outer world and our inner landscapes, adventuring into both the known and the unknown.
My soul meets my body and I live. So must this relationship. Our souls meet our bodies and within this meeting, our relationship sparks to life, to live as it may for as long as we will be.
Our Now is still an issue of wrong timing. No matter how I might justify or ignore or pretend, he is not in a place for me and will not be able to be there within a time frame which works for me.
I spent my twenties learning to be an individual in the world. I spent my thirties figuring out how to be wife and mother. In my forties, I spent most of my time learning who I am as a spiritual being.? And thus far in my fifties, I am coming back to myself physically, allowing the athlete in me to emerge for the first time in my life.
I want a relationship with a man which functions and evolves on all levels, spiritual, emotional, intellectual and I don’t want one-sided or almost there.? I want it all and I want the relationship to be integrated — meaning I want all levels to work together, to create an experience greater than the sum of all of our parts.
I seek a Him because in his reflection I see me. Not because there is anything missing in me. More like a light refracting through a prism, my white light shining through him reveals the rainbow that is me. And he is taken by my rainbow and his light refracted through me becomes his rainbow which is him, unveiled to him.
In seeking to live from the best of myself, open and integrated across all levels, I experience in sacred relationship Goddess Emergence. I am the feminine aspect of the divine made manifest.