When I was 12, when asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, I knew instinctively what I wanted: Prince Charming on his white steed whisking me away. This response always got a laugh. Now when I think of my reply, as a grownup, I instinctively get what I didn’t understand then. I … Read more
You can’t choose me until you choose you. That’s what stands before you: you. And choice. To be at choice with me requires that you choose you. I see the hesitation born from a life time of conciliatory gestures which have slowly killed you within the intimacy of the sacred relationship which you should have … Read more
When my desire to feel a man’s finger trace my spine, to feel his lips on mine, to bring him pleasure in return – when this desire goes unfulfilled, the act of self-pleasure hangs like a cold fog on my heart. I know that I could find release in a shadowed place with whatever randy … Read more
I thought I knew exactly what would happen, And I was entirely wrong, Because you are you, And I didn’t know you, Until I did, And then it was too late, And would have been untruthful, For anything else to be, Including what I thought, Which turned out to be wrong, Because in, the end, The truth is I receive delight in your presence.
Somewhere out in the world you are there I feel your movement I feel your smile Directed toward the people in your life Your friends, your family, your clients. One day your there will be my here I feel your pull I feel your desire Directed towards the me you do not yet know But … Read more
Deep within me is the need to seek sacred relationship. This is relationship with myself and this is relationship with other, especially but not limited to a life partner. In sacred relationship, I seek a sense of alignment, a sense of coming home. In short I seek safe harbor. The place where I can be … Read more
Three years ago, after divorce, I started dating for the first time in 25 years. Two years ago after an intense personal learning period brought on by the dating, I thought I had this meet-the-love-of-my-life thing worked out. I’d done my work, I thought. I’d released the trials and tribulations of past pain and hurt. … Read more
Creation of One and Creation of Two Meet me here in this nest. In between stands my fear That I cannot have either. Let go sighs the templed trees. Let go encourages the surf below. Just be my heart claims. Night above washes away my guard. Without a word to any one I feel my … Read more
There are moments when the feeling of being alone reaches down into the tail end of my spine with a soreness of too much exertion.? I take a long, slow, deep breath to calm my BEing.? But before I can respond the sensation hits my heart and single tears trace paths down my cheeks.? In … Read more
Written in the Spring of 2015 I feel like I keep hitting my head on a brick wall. I show up. I smile, I lean in. I ask questions. I listen. I respond. I share. I ask more questions. I laugh. I tease. I am genuinely interested in knowing more, uncovering those unique bits … Read more
Soulmate is a term which denotes an acquaintance made at the soul level between two people often in a romantic sense.? While it is true that this experience is often between lovers, at a deeper level the connection is one established to create opportunity for a very deep level of learning and growth, soul to … Read more
When men are pigs, what choice do women have? There are many choices including oinking back. For me, I know that often my choice has been to let go of myself so that I can keep some semblance of a man/pig in my life and doing so without acknowledging or confronting the lousy choice I just made for me.
I want the King to my Queen, the Horned God for my Goddess. The man who I can trust to yield my neck.The man who will accept the whiteness of my belly.The man who will protect me with fierce loveAnd defend me with loyal action. He comes fully alive in my presenceAnd embraces me with … Read more
Cross human nature with Mother Nature and the depth of experience is intensified. When I touch the earth, the deep soul of her reaches into my body filling my cells, illuminating my being. When I breathe the forest or feel the ocean’s mist, connection is established which reflects to me my entire experience of stepping … Read more